i give into impulses

I very much do. I would like to imagine myself as disciplined and focused, capable of learning and doing whatever I set my mind to do. I project this perception onto others with my confidence, without really meaning to do so. I think that because, in my mind, at least, that version of me is true to them, then it is at least in part true to me as well.

To remediate this, I often cast my ambition to all the things I could do to 'fix' the traits I have but do not like, including my impulsivity and my recklessness to procrastinate things that are important. Even now, this time could be better spent doing schoolwork. I have many things to do, but I delay them because I think that I can get away with it; I think of myself as more than I am.

I'm not sure as of yet how to even fix this about myself. I start a diet, and I say that I have, so in my mind it is as good as completed. I may try on it for a few days, but then I give into the temptation of energy drinks and fast food. I don't even like fast food all that much, I'm just lazy. I spend so much of my time going to the stores and buying energy drinks that are wreaking havoc on my dental health and yet I don't consistently brush my teeth. The fast thing is better, it would seem. The instant gratification is preferable, it would seem.

My medicine is meant to help with this, but it doesn't really. It just makes the time I spend doing things I know that I shouldn't be doing a bit more fun. I start to play video games, and I'm having so much fun playing video games, why would I stop?